January 2011
164 posts
New Year's Resolution.
Go after the things you want.
And I’ll also try believing believe in myself more, after all I am someone worth believing in.
December 2010
150 posts
I think I understand now what it means to be me, I...
I don’t really have the time to explain it or tell about it, but it feels better to be honest, it feels better even if the outcome isn’t always favorable. But I see the difference even if others are angry with me, I don’t feel pain knowing that I was just truthful.
Hmm, life is crystal into the self when we look into it we see out reflection.
When we act we see our actions.
...
Oh Tumblr
I have to reflect on you at some point, but I’m tired, very tired right, I have to write about purpose.
Three simple rules of life.
wiggidywhack123:
1) If you do not go after what you want, you will never have it. 2) If you do not ask, then the answer will always be no. 3) If you do not step forward, you will always be in the same place.
Shit this girls got my fucking brain- I gotta get back to being a straight shooting.
Remember Decker it’s good to say what you feel, and it’s no one else’s business even...
Wild Zero is a 2000 Japanese "Jet rock 'n' roll"...
The DVD suggests a Wild Zero drinking game, in which a beer mug appears in the top-right corner (via the subtitle track) every time:
Someone drinks
Someone combs their hair
Fire shoots out of anything
Anyone says Rock n Roll
Something explodes
A zombie’s head pops
The number of drinks by the end of the film is around 100.
So fucking tempted- Momentary weakness- bad habits die hard
...
Run Sweet moondrop
It’s good to be honest and say what you feel to the pretty girl.
I’m already beginning to change my thought process, It’s still in the partial stage, but I am steadily influencing the thought process.
I am not someone horrible, I will not hurt anyone by going after who I want, though I am the moment not speaking specification (My immobile movement moderately fucked up my...
Nothing today, no worries no pain, I'll hide away...
It’s good to be honest and I will be honest with pretty girls.
But in changing my minds thought process here, I subtly change the rest of my being. Hello new self and here’s hoping I don’t need anything more.
I've been awake for a while, but I'd better wake...
Hmm, I feel myself again shifting as a person,...
I feel weird, It’s always strange being a different person.
Just remember it’s good to tell pretty girls what you think.
Yes I am steadily changing my own mind, steady influencing my own thought process. Fuck am I tired, I think I’ll probably be falling asleep soon believe it or not, last night I couldn’t sleep.
Any attempt at a story would have way to much information...
I think I've finally finally figured it out, if...
At the moment I’m not all into optimisism.
Hmm I'm going to have to find places to go to,
It’s strange being here in fair lawn, where I don’t know a soul. But I can’t stay home or I’ll go insane.
So what now, I don’t have a job or a anything, I don’t know how do you meet people in places where you know no one.
I know I’ll Google it.
Fuck they all involve joining clubs and shit- Hmm, alright I’m fucked.
But what now, I guess I’ll...
Ok right now I think I am able to say what I think...
I deep down still believe I will fail. That needs to go away, I need to change the way I think again.
I need a dream of something to disrupt the moment.
I need a dream of something to disrupt the moment.
Right now I feel as if I’m standing still, sitting in the dark thinking of angels, except its still dark and I haven’t seen many angels. Dammit I’m suddenly so sad.
Alright tomorrow I’m going to get up and start a new day. Wash away the broken dreams.
The irony is that I am lucky, despite all that has been I see my own...
I'm calm again.
Not home, it’s a sad thing, but I will never be able to stay there for very long. I know that on some gut level.
Remember it’s good to be honest and I will be honest with myself as well as other people.
In honesty I have done little today, went to my grandparents house, I’m going to learn Katakana, the symbols don’t look totally alien to me, but I need to learn it well.
...
I totally need this, a 40 minute drive- no fucking...
Meaning in Life is a Secret Worth Knowing, Only...
To reevaluate
It is good to saw what you feel, to girls, it is good to be honest with them.
But not to anyone else. Honestly telling someone you don’t like people who talk about what they don’t have a clue about “at least I didn’t say out of your ass”.
Uhhhh, I hate stupid people, I hate people who make up things.
Alright I can be a little arrogant sometimes, my father is like
...
Alright internet connection is so incredibly slow...
I hate this stupid house, with the horrible internet connection,
Damn damn damnd madanmdmnsdknmfbgriuorewihgoitehgoirewhfeoiheqodihewpoiejf
Ok awkward sitituation,
A girl I once knew a little bit (not very well), but so I bump into her again after like eternity. So before asking her for her number, I realize her I already had it. Still had it in my phone from I don’t know the fuck when. I don’t even care I’m just going to facebook message her and be somewhere along, no how the fuck do you explain that.
Oh yea I couldn’t ask you for...
Reality Check
I got a 55 on my one final in my politics class, holy fucking shit.
And he gave me a C- (One hell of a fucking curve, well the only thing I did good on was the part about his book, for the future study the lecture notes, not the readings, they don’t do shit.
But my evil class that I though would kill me, where I got a 55 on the final ended with a C-. I guess it’s easy getting middle...
Alright, I survived the horrid classes.
So I suspect 3.3 or the where a bout’s this semester. Thank fucking god, I would say the worst of which is my C- in U.S. politics. Lowest grade in my life, but I’ll take it for this class. So I guess I managed in the where about in the B+ range A on the final. My participation grade was no doubt somewhere near zero. That’s what I get for falling asleep in class for nearly ...
Personality
I briefly tried mentioning it to some people, but I couldn’t explain. I’ve undergone this 160 personality.
Extroverted, to what others describe as an introvert.
In basically every way I have changed, and for the most part for the better.
But sometimes I’m a bit surprised by how much others accept me, I think you would need to have seen me before to understand, a before and...
Cryptic
Someone told me I was cryptic and it’s true. When people ask me questions I tell them half-truths. I don’t lie, I only say enough. Never tip your hand, never say more then you need to, though in truth I never say as much as I should.
So what’s next, I’m going to lie down, go to sleep for a few hours, study for my final and wake up. Damn I don’t have anything in me...
Lesson of the Day: Monday, December 20, 2010
actyourshoesize:
99% of the time, it is better that you just ask it.
Ain’t that the fucking truth.
“Me only have one ambition, y’know. I only have one thing I really like to...”
– http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/b/bob_marley.html
Lol- Rastafarian
“You ever get like sometimes ye get on that toilet and ye shit, that water splash...”
– Eddie Murphy
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0092948/quotes
I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw...
eseer-t:
</3 this reminds me of the song “Christmas Shoes”…its always gets to me =(
Kind of wish I hadn’t read it.
I feel this emergence of strength growing in me.
I don’t know if it makes sense totally for me right now, but I feel as if I’m this strong person who has been stepped on for so very long.
But I don’t feel the footprints right now, I think their wearing off.
But I most always remember my humanity (after all I’ve spent such a very long time searching for it.)
Fuck languages, everyone should learn English!!!...
Life is weird and . . .
… sometimes quite shitty.
I feel like no matter what I do is going to trap me (Yes super cryptic here).
But I am not always a fan of reality, consequences and limitations, but I can’t be that person who does nothing any more.
I think that no matter what I do …
I don’t know, the only thing I can do is decide, shoot straight and let the chips fall. Doing nothing is...
Here is the finals update at the waypoint (Fuck I...
Oral Rethoric Monday 20th 12:20-2:20 – Not really worried just a speech
U.S. Congress Friday 17 2:30-4:30 Scared as Shit- but it’s over and I’ll probally be all right, thought I knew it
Begining Voice Thursday 16th 8-10A.M. Kicked Azz
Japanese Monday 20th 8-10A.M – Probally going to fail, but whatever it won’t make a terrible dent and I’ll try
Psych December 21 Tuesday 2:30-4:30 –Not...
I'm going to need to force the cogs into place...
I’ve learned that things don’t generally place themselves.
My flaws: Seeing mattttfigga made me want to...
I have great trouble making decisions, though I am improving greatly, I still so often make brilliant plans and dream the dream. Only to do nothing.
Though I am comfortable with who I am, I often believe others find me lacking. Though I am also working on this.
I know how to get others to open up, by being open, however all so often I am cryptic, I hide who I am and what I feel. Even worse, I...
Life Lesson, happiness isn't just about ourselves-...
Sometimes life is bittersweet and I’m only human.
Let it be.
I have to admit my flaws
Yes it is 5:30 and yes I have just gotten up to do my work and yes I am on. Just because I feel.
OK remember before when I was talking about pain.
Mental/emotion pain means there is something wrong.
And I’m not burning up inside, I don’t feel the sharp stakes of humanity, only, I feel the silent decay. I feel the quiet sorry, “sorry without...
Is this really on my Psychology of Gender final...
Creating Health
Listen to your body.
Cultivate self respect. - “I accept myself unconditionally right now.”
Identify the desire to create and your power of intent.
Understand the law of attraction.
Embrace the potential of biology.
Get support.
Walk away from negativity.
Internalize completion regularly. Identify strengths without denying areas that need work.
Don’t blame. Forgive.
...
I am not who I was yesterday, I am not who I am...
Right now I am slightly heart broken, as I was this morning, but sadness always come with the day.
I find it likely that mental pain, just like physical pain is a response, it’s a response to what best not be.
And with physical pain the best bet is to heal the wound.
And with mental pain the best bet is to heal the wound.
So what comes next.
I well right now I am not sad, but I have a...
Ok so before I start my homework. . .You can't...
Here’s to my metamorphosis of personality. Fuck.
Now I think this is the point where I have changed enough of myself to be who I want to be.
Only now I have the take the next step … Duh duh duh. Because as of now I officially declare that I have reached the conversational ability of someone normal, or perhaps a bit above.
In any event I have reached the level I need to deal with...
technicolordiscode-deactivated2 asked: When is the last time you'll be on campus next week before you go home? (check your facebook messages)
Even though you don't celebrate Christmas, I have a small present for you.
Even though you don't celebrate Christmas, I have a small present for you.
Some call it luck...: It seems like indecision is... →
youngjoe:
It seems like indecision is starting a lot of problems for a lot of people. I’m not really sure what the matter is but it seems like they don’t really know what they want and they’re basing their decisions or lack thereof on what the interests of the people around them are. I think the problem is…
Alright- the fucking man here. Why the fuck did it re-blog as “fucking man...
OK so I'm 92% sure that darkmasked00 is Lindell-...
I mean there is a tiny little chance it could be Greg or Kris- miscellaneous freshman who know I have a tumbler, or there is a tiny little chance that it’s someone else definitely a guy though. But I’m fairly fucking sure its you so quite spying.