January 2011
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I'm going to try spending the rest of the day...
I need a half hour or so of nothing, then I’ll start- not really I will. I just wish the text books had come in earlier this semester, it’s a bit of a pain catching up.
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I'm in a good mood now. This was a weird post...
The woulda, coulda, shoulda always is, we can always look back and say now I would do better. And maybe that’s true, but right now I will do better.
But my change is apparent and shit right now I’m change that last little part of me.
Slow shift in me. Shift a little more
This might not make sense, but right now I’m perceiving a future situation and seeing how I will act in it...
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This is actually a really typical conversation in...
Grandmother: Why are you going Japan?
Me: Well, I'm taking Japanese.
Grandfather: Are you going to marry a Japanese girl?
Me: Well, I don't think I want to get married anytime soon.
Grandmother: Why would you marry a Japanese girl, I mean the babies are cute, but they grow up to be ugly.
Me: That''s not true at all.
Grandfather: Their not ugly.
Aunt: That's really stupid.
Me: And racist.
Grandmother: That's not racism, all Asian girl just happen to be ugly. I know what racism is. And I don't want you to leave the country- there might be drugs.
Cousin Laura (she's my cousin, but she is in her thirties): Light drugs are alright.
Grandmother: Well I don't like drugs.
Me: It's doesn't matter there are drugs here too and I'm not taking drugs anyway and I'm still going.
Me: Well I've got to go now.
Grandmother (While I'm still there): You know he's almost like an adult.
Aunt: That's because he is one.
Grandmother: You know your my favorite grandchild, I like the other one's too but you were the first. Even though you have a terrible temper.
Aunt: He doesn't have a temper.
Grandmother: No he does, it's a quiet stubborn temper (I don't even want to ask). Also you used to be more interesting when you were younger, we would have these interesting conversations. Now I find you very boring. . . (continues)
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“I’m on my way, I don’t know where I’m goin’. I’m...”
– Simon and Garfunkle
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Yea I don't really need to worry for tommorrow,...
I find it fucking horrible, but this is going to be a semester with a shit load of reading and since the books were so slow coming in I need to try keeping afloat.
Fuck I feel so boring right now…
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You know I was just thinking to myself over the...
I don’t really want to learn how to read or write in it- but possibly learn how to really speak it on the side for verbal fluency.
Just a thought.
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I had something on my mind before and muttled...
And thankfully it’s once again made my head clear.
I just realized something...
Hmm yea. It’s one of those judgment calls I’ve got to make. I might end up regretting it, nah. I guess you sometimes just have to do what needs to be done.
Yea this is overly fucking cryptic, but fucking A. I was real tired to be honest and fell asleep for a few hours- at around 4, though I will no doubt get hungry.
So I’m going to restart the whole gym thing, but I think...
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So I was in a bad mood before.
It’s good to be confused every once in a while, maybe it can help us find our way.
So what now for me? I reply to someone on here that it’s not about who we are, It’s about what we want and why we want it.
Ya, so what do I want?
I guess for now I’ll keep it open ended.
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I didn't feel very much like going with the group.
Though this was a non-Asian one, I’ve become so boring.
Not in the interesting matter, but I just feel like being with people I know or drinking with people am extremely friendly with.
And lately whenever I can go somewhere I normally don’t wanna go, I think it’s because I just.
I don’t know I don’t understand myself all the time. Last year I would have gone- when...
Alright finished that shit- tommorrow will be far...
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This is quiet boring- ya fuck.
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Ok these are starting to make me laugh a little.
SOCRATES: You are a rogue, Meno, and had all but caught me. MENO: What do you mean, Socrates? SOCRATES: I can tell why you made a simile about me. MENO: Why? SOCRATES: In order that I might make another simile about you. For I know that all pretty young gentlemen like to have pretty similes made about them—as well they may—but I shall not return the compliment.
I'm sorry Socrates, but I just hate this shit. I...
MENO: When you have told me what I ask, I will tell you, Socrates.
SOCRATES: A man who was blindfolded has only to hear you talking, and he would know that you are a fair creature and have still many lovers.
MENO: Why do you think so?
SOCRATES: Why, because you always speak in imperatives: like all beauties when they are in their prime, you are tyrannical; and also, as I suspect, you have...
Today was not a great day, I ended up hanging out...
It’s one of those things, I would have liked to have had a friend with me.
No days have perfection I guess, today’s goal is to keep my calm, don’t argue with my father, get up on time and get home without being nervous.
Just sit through all his boring conversations and force yourself to talk.
I just don’t want to have any problems tomorrow.
I’m losing my voice...
The biggest dream..
kristinconway:
My biggest dream would be for me to be filthy rich. To the point where I have my own volt for my money. Where I can just swim in money and make my parents proud of how far I’ve gone. How Ssccessful I’ve become. Where I could give them all their wants and needs with the money I’ve earned. Where they can depend on me and solve their problems. Build them their own house.. Buy an...
I need five minutes on here, before I eat/get up.
My goal today is just to be myself, speak enough to be heard.
Though here I’m in a very different environment, with very few people who support me and far more who in all likelihood do not want me to be there.
But it is what it is and well Bishop invited me up so at least I have one friend and Dash is here and he has nothing against me. Other then that well if I need to speak up I’ll...
Ok I really fucking fufilled my goal, I'm in a...
and gonna celebrate with mindless internet time.
This night I had my voice, I just have to develop it a bit better, sometimes it’s not who you know, or what you know, or how you know what you know (yea I’m speaking in bullshit here).
The first important thing is how you present yourself.
Then the substance of who you are.
I’ve got the substance so I’m not too worried...
Though just to finish a thought.
I am becoming more direct and I do speak my mind (the difference from a year ago when I would also speak my mind is that I was a mess and speaking my mind would cause trouble, as opposed to now where I no longer have my head *figuratively shoved up my ass.
OK this is the first real fucking concreate goal...
Yea I might be the smartest fucker in the room, I might no more, I might think quicker.
I might want to say something or want something or someone.
I might show subtle strength that becomes apparent after a time, but I can’t just be subtle- I ain’t quite that good looking.
I think it’s a gauging thing, I’m happy as I am, with a group I’m comfortable with, when I...
So I was talking with my security guard friend in...
cause the toilet here overflowed and the campus is slow as shit and she told me she could call them and get them to help out, like shitty quick (no she did not actually say shitty quick)
But I said no, I guess on some level didn’t feel like cutting the, sometimes I’m a little stupid.
I'm a bit annoyed at today, but weather is a...
Another goal, don’t worry so much if shit happens, as long as you make up for it.
I don't know if it was the cafe food or what, but...
“That’s why I survived because I still believe I’ve got something to...”
– Lou Reed
So my laptop's power is in the red and there are...
I’m interesting, it’s kind of funny when you see the little things fall into place, piece by piece. I’ve said it before, build myself up until I’m happy or at least feel that true peace.
I right now would very much prefer to have my class canceled in the morning. I need the texts books to really catch up- and tomorrow I would be ecstatic to start at 1:00 with Japanese, I...
If you love your dad, repost this. One boy didn't...
yourkisses-:
This is a really fucking horrible thing to start
When someone follows you on Tumblr:
fuckyeahlaughters:
When someone follows you on twitter :
When someone follows you in real life:
Goal for day three yea you need to think and care...
Just start with baby steps.
Ya nanananananna
I’m gonna start doing more work in a little while, here to hoping I can force myself to do my work this weekend.
99% of my followers are asian.
meghanmedallo:
o_____o
What’s it gotta take to get some diversity around here?
Lol me too- except I’m white haha.
I've been getting headaches alot latey, the...
The last few days this week, especially today and yesterday.
Guess I’ll cut short here, the teachers made it…
I'm tired of pretty poetry.
There are time when I’m emotional and feel dreams, but
this ain’t one of those times. Right now I just feel like shooting straight and saying it how it is.
Not to be angry or hurt, that is far from what I want, I just in a different phase right now.
I guess I do the emotional shit sometime later.
OK yea I haven’t see my roommate in days, normally it’s bad, just this...
Ok fuck the last goals their shitty, here is my...
Ask the one of the people giving you the cold shoulder why? Not to be angry, just to know.
And you must do this tomorrow, even if there is more then one person hanging around. Alright not to the whole fucking group, but even if there’s one or two people just ask why. You are a fucking guy and no matter who it is with a stick up their ass, every once in a while I should calmly ask WTF.
Ok day two of goals.
Stick by those who need help,don’t condemn just to spur in the crowd.
Once you get your phone back your gonna have to get your shit in line,
Note to self:
itsmeeshy:
Always think through things first before acting upon.
Don’t ever think it’s overrated.
I really like my politics class, the one I really...